The Courage to become a better person..

I feel I should say… “Hi my name is Morgan and I like to do everything myself.” Is there a support group out there for this?

My Mom passed away last year in September. A few months after her passing I wrote an article about the stages of grief that I was experiencing. I talked about how difficult it was for me to accept help from others. I would be asked, “How are you?” or “Is there anything that we can do for you?” and I would reply “I’m Fine.” but even though that was partly true, I was still going through a lot! Why couldn’t I accept the help that so many people wanted to offer me?

How many times do we draw into ourselves while we face some trial or traumatic event? This is one of my challenges that I am trying to change. I have people around me that want to help, they want to make my lift easier and lift me up when I am feeling low. Why do I instead shut myself away? Habit. And oh how hard it is to break that habit! It is something that I have been working on for 10 years. Little by little and sometimes big leaps of inspiration have marked my progress of breaking this habit. And I have actually accepted help when it was offered as well as ask for help when I needed it. What?? Yes I said I asked for help!

Yikes!

Whenever I think about asking someone for help there is a dialog that I go through (yes I talk to myself, don’t you?). By the end of this conversation I have convinced myself that so and so is busy and that I really should not inconvenience them with this small matter. And then what happens…yep, I do it all myself!

10 years (and still going strong) is a long time to be working on this, but even though sometimes I am frustrated, I am moving forward and I couldn’t ask for more than that. We never stop learning, we never stop growing. What a beautiful and wonderful thing it is that we have the opportunity to become a better person! Now if only I had more patience so that I could be content with my one step forward and two steps back that I occasionally take through this journey!

So whatever challenge you may be working on, don’t give up and please be forgiving of yourself when you do make a mistake and revert to those old bad habits that you are trying to break.

I love this quote:

“Courage does not always roar. Sometimes it’s the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, I will try again tomorrow.”

Changing for the better takes courage and it takes time. Have the determination to change for the better, while loving yourself enough to be kind when you make a mistake.

Namaste my friends!

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